Saturday, February 5, 2011

i want to know

warning: i am feeling a bit down at this moment, so this post probably isn't going to be the most cheery post...

i want to know how to be happy with another person. not all of the time, but relatively most of the time. i want to know if its possible for things to be easier than they are, and if its worth trying to find it. i want to know if i am so impossible that i will never be happy in a relationship. do i create my own unhappiness? am i just too difficult? maybe i just don't know how to get to that place. seriously, i want to know.

the truth is that i can only change so much to be a better person and to be easier to live with and less critical and more laid-back, but sometimes my difficult self is going to come out and someone just has to love me anyway. right? at least i hope that someone can.

guess you all are glad you aren't dating me :)


4 comments:

  1. Linds - You are an amazing, beautiful, thoughtful and caring person. You are not too difficult. But I honestly think sometimes it is not worth shoving a square peg in a round hole. You will find happiness - I just know it. But you have to keep trying - Don't give up and don't settle! Love you

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  2. I second Case's words of wisdom. If you're awesome and you know it, then it will eventually work out (at least that's what I tell myself). Chin up, my friend.

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  3. Agreed. Square peg, round hole. You should not have to try so hard. You are fantastic and we all know it. It is okay in any situation (job, relationship, clothing) to say, "This is not working for me." And then make a change.

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